I'm... disturbed (although a better choice of word would probably be offended) by the recent trend among the Singaporeans here at Brown of disparaging A*STAR scholars, whether or not as a harmless joke. Actually, from what I can perceive, there's very little that's purely jocular about this matter. Underlying the constant ribbing is a very real... something, I'm not sure what to call it without sounding too oversensitive, hysterical or neurotic. In any case, it's a far from positive vibe and I'm none too pleased with the judgmental attitude going on these days - although, as I'd said before, for purely selfish reasons.
I do not appreciate being judged, even if indirectly, yet such things do happen and in fact happen all the time. Theoretically, I just have to make peace with my own choices, be comfortable with myself, live the way I think best and to hell with what other people say. They have less moral superiority than they presume.
But. But.
(Dash it all to heck. I need to get cracking on physics homework.)
words were spilled on Monday, September 18, 2006
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sod 'em. i'd tell you to give them a piece of your mind, if not for the fact that it'd probably bother you more than it should.
meanwhile i send love. try to stay off the substance abuse? i'm trying to stay off substance abuse too. it would be nice to have company.
meanwhile i send love. try to stay off the substance abuse? i'm trying to stay off substance abuse too. it would be nice to have company.
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: 11:18 AM
: 11:18 AM
gee. A'STARS reputation really seems to be quite unsavory.
anyway without going into specifics. yeah ...it sucks to be lumped into a huge group - worse if its not even in a positive light... as for your choices, to hell with what other people say! ASTARs still a cushy ticket. :)
i send peace, goodwill and love!
and hey, to sidetrack a little, you were pretty decent as a senior in HC! what are you talking about!
anyway without going into specifics. yeah ...it sucks to be lumped into a huge group - worse if its not even in a positive light... as for your choices, to hell with what other people say! ASTARs still a cushy ticket. :)
i send peace, goodwill and love!
and hey, to sidetrack a little, you were pretty decent as a senior in HC! what are you talking about!
hey i send love too.. n whatever warmth i can muster up in the cold, cold place where I am now.
i know how it sucks to be labelled.. and i think it's v childish to disparage A*STAR scholars jus for the fact tt u guys accepted the scholarships.
but then again, if these pple r NOT ur close friends.. jus ignore what they say. It's your own life and u are free to lead it the way u want.
i'm prob labelled as a mugger too by the singaporeans who came here.. and I've learnt to come to terms w it i hope. even though there were some periods when i was close to tears too.. haiz.
Jia you to ignoring them!
In the meantime.. I'll try to tag on ur blog more frequently. Sorry abt not tagging.
i know how it sucks to be labelled.. and i think it's v childish to disparage A*STAR scholars jus for the fact tt u guys accepted the scholarships.
but then again, if these pple r NOT ur close friends.. jus ignore what they say. It's your own life and u are free to lead it the way u want.
i'm prob labelled as a mugger too by the singaporeans who came here.. and I've learnt to come to terms w it i hope. even though there were some periods when i was close to tears too.. haiz.
Jia you to ignoring them!
In the meantime.. I'll try to tag on ur blog more frequently. Sorry abt not tagging.
thanks for the love :) even though i was very likely misinterpreting the situation/ overreacting/ being insecure and paranoid like i am prone to do. really appreciate it.
right, now that i've gotten those issues out of the way, immunology awaits, and i shall tackle it with diligence befitting an a*star scholar. :P
right, now that i've gotten those issues out of the way, immunology awaits, and i shall tackle it with diligence befitting an a*star scholar. :P
hey all!
brenda cheer up! you are smarter than all of them. i learnt a new word just by reading this entry. oh yeah one way to boost your immunity is to throw some jokes back at them. it's all in the name of fun you know, anything goes ;)
brenda cheer up! you are smarter than all of them. i learnt a new word just by reading this entry. oh yeah one way to boost your immunity is to throw some jokes back at them. it's all in the name of fun you know, anything goes ;)
well, i can't say that i'm smarter than them... because i'm not and that's the truth.
that's part of the problem - i keep thinking, hmm, maybe they have a point, you know...
but thanks anyway. :)
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that's part of the problem - i keep thinking, hmm, maybe they have a point, you know...
but thanks anyway. :)
