nondescript in blue

Monday, December 06, 2004
If I can't find something positive to blog about...

What the hell. I'm doing it anyway.

I can't overcome the writer's block that plagues me whenever I confront my blank 'personal statement' forms and untouched essays. I can't. How does my mind work? What are my values? What issues are important to me? Oh please. Pseudo-intellectual posturing, maybe, but real insight? I'm retching already.

I suppose I could assemble something out of nothing very much, give it a gloss of sincerity - and work hard at living the half-truth, fervently hoping that in time, the misrepresentation becomes reality. Maybe that's what most people end up doing anyway. Give me a perfect delusion, one that I can really believe and swear up and down by.

I really, really need to get out more. And get a job.

Brenda - resolutely dedicated to a life of tedious stability and relentless obsession,
stuck with a mental age that is increasingly failing to keep pace with physical age.
Addicted to methyxanthines, NSAIDs, monosodium glutamate, instant gratification and certain forms of mindless entertainment. Now with a newfound addiction to pretty sweaters, online movie rental and solitary urban hikes in foreign countries.

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