Monday, August 02, 2004
It's not a good thing to whinge and whine on every single post. It's a symptom of a self-absorbed mind. But nevertheless. Time races past and I'm still unable to get a grip - and with each day that passes... it sucks, sucks, sucks. Sucks so much that sometimes I just stare at my organiser in despair and entertain thoughts of simply giving up and... I don't know, retreating into a nice library somewhere to finish up Frank Herbert and Patrick O'Brian? Or maybe just sleep it off. Sleep is good, though admittedly I've been over-indulging myself. I wake up, feel refreshed and energetic for a while, before it all cycles back into guilt again.
University applications suck. Prelims suck. EDB essays suck. The scholarship rat race sucks. Why I have to subject myself to all this... I jolly well know. And I hate, hate, HATE that simple little fact. I feel a violent desire to simply stop bothering, give it all up for a simpler life.
On a separate note: I love the 'Children of Dune' soundtrack. So what if 'Inama Nushif' sounds a bit like Lisa Gerrard's work in 'Gladiator'... it's a glorious piece of music all the same.
words were spilled on Monday, August 02, 2004